and it was all in my head.
Squats are the greatest exercise known the man. You need to recruit every muscle in your body and deal with the fact that there is a bar on your shoulders trying to drill you into the ground.
My programming today was working up to heavy set of 5.
Warmed up with the bar and jumped to 60,70,80,90,100,110,120.
All going fine.
Loaded the bar with 130 and did 3 reps. Felt heavy but was going up easily enough. The last 2 reps were ugly.
Which surprised me.
It felt like someone had snuck an extra 10kgs on each side while I wasn’t looking.
Now for the money set.
3 reps. Grind them out.
Rep 4 took about 8 seconds to get out of the hole.
Lots of deep breathes. Lower myself down into the bottom position.
Then the defining moment.
My mind told me I wasn’t going to make it.
My body lost just enough energy for me to drop back down and dump the bar on the safety rack.
I was pissed. I still am.
You know why?
I have squatted more than this many times. My body is capable but today my mind didn’t have the core ingredient you need to do anything.
In that micro-second I lost belief and I failed.
You have to believe you can lift heavy weights.
You have to believe you can start a business.
You have to believe you can lose weight.
You have to believe you can find a partner.
You have to believe even when others don’t believe in your dreams.
If you think you can’t you’re automatically right.
Believe or get buried